like a Sculpture Relief !!

Feeling without judgment is a washy draught indeed; but judgment untempered by feeling is too bitter and husky a morsel for human deglutition. Charlotte Bronte

My dad's an advocate by profession.He prejudges the situations much before they ought to occur and reads his clients psychology from a very entrance to the office. So how can we family members be spared from this unique talent of his.. With no false intentions he enjoys knowing and discovering events with us children (be it married cousins, bachelor cousins or friends). I dont know by default its witnessed:- me to be the most devilry of the lot [huh!! why only me yaar] Its evident - all the most innocent and naive are often blamed. Cows na... beer all ;) heh...
Parents { all the elderlies in the family} come up with vague conclusion at times {only for me haan}... I frequently undergo this collision... [c again me only] I feel as is I am oscillating in undefined groove - Am I a kid or I have grown up? for some things they say -" U no more a kid haan" and very same time - "U haven't grown that much".. Hellllllowwwwww!!!!!! Is there any stand point to where I belong :? phewwwwww.... Avoid it! smile as long as river Nile ! {see how easy going I am after so many traumatic plight :) thank u, thank u... Its so much me :D heh}
Astounded are my parents!!! hahaha.....a holly terror {was never but named by all} came out to be someone they never expected... A sanctitude girl!! A family girl!! A girl whom they thought to have umpteen affairs {as was a Halla Bol in my stupid town huh} BUT unheeded the affairs {as they now know :P} A girl.... A girl... A girl..... {wooooooooooo.... jactitation..... gha gha gha !!}

Off lately, parents came across so many love marriages happening and so they were so sure of me :P but but but...... they stated a similie - you are like a Sculptural Relief!!! [heavy haan]
[P.S. Let me explain:I know someone will surely ask me to.. I know that someone is conveyed :) - by this they meant... of all the happenings in society u stand out to our disbelief!! lol :P]
{chuck yaar I will explain that someone in person}

Cock-a-Hoop :)

Alike.... ahem ahem... even my lungs are stuffed [take a deep breath - evil will come out :P]

Even I was convincing myself if this is me???? tch tch tch... chaaaa.... wat an image :? so much unlike my appearance :) watever haan.... enuf degrading - i m not THAT bad after all.
anyways...
One day I told mom - "Mom, I have no guy in my life nor I can conclude one to marry.. So.. its all yer choice"
{ I know all u idiots must be laughing naaaa... soon will fade away huh!}
Mom for once felt diabetic.. trust me.... I saw that relief and glow on her face as if she had been longing for this... candy me!!! [ Naah...I think adventurous me :P ]
Then I thought too much of buttering.. what if unknowingly I end up with someone.. {right time right thought.. bacha liya Babaji :) } I immediately tailed my phrase and said "But keep the options Open, Mom! " {hahahaha.... ab tho saari stupid hansi udh gayi na? :) }
But Mom's no less and she gave me those looks [ye lo I got conveyed - Diplomatic me... phewww].. What to do yaar?? I have to think in all directions na...Nothing is easy na...

No matter though...

Believe me....to keep convincing the family I recently caught up with one song which I have played like 56th time now... :) [arre samjha karo yaar... kitna melodious tareeka hain kuch ehsaas dilaane ka :) ]

So the track attached below .. I dedicate to myself ..... gha gha gha :D

Farishta nahi mein (3)
Jo ishq na kar saku

Farishta nahi mein (3)
Jo ishq na kar saku (3)

[Kitabo mein lipti hui
koi mein kahani nahi ] (2)

Mein zinda faasana tera
Meri aankhon mein saasein leti hai
Ek zindagi

Masiha nahi hoon (3)
Jo ishq na kar saku (3)

[Kinaro pe dooba hoon mein
wafaon mein uljha hoon mein ] (2)

Tera hi junoon hai mujhe

Teri yaadon ko sajda karti hai awargi

Mein lamha nahi hoon (3)
Jo phir na aa saku (3)

{Sing with me yaar - my way - my tunes}
{C how happening a life can become}

:) Cheers!!

A patron of my Life

Grand Cities Petite Hearts
'Give n Take' is what they trait
Be your relatives or family frens
a favor to ask is like a sinful flask...

[I have been a victim to this covetous odor]

Once someone pricked : Welcome to Mumbai! I wondered- Was that someone actually welcoming? or sarci? or meant something else? whatever...I dismissed with a smile.
And soon I graduated and got my Post Graduate admittance. To my belief after a lavish hostel life the hardship of life commenced. A PG or a flat to put in ,with some new and some familiar faces to adjust. A lot of struggle i eased. Alas! a time came when I craved for a good looking accommodation as always had one. Hey!! I was not thrown out from the last one.....OKAY!! I only had problem with the PG as the landlady lied to me about few things for which I was totally against (now dun ask for what all haan :/) Anyways... SO,papa asked me to put up at one of our family frens place. Imagine my cousin Nani who always cared for me in my grads as she was my LG, I could not ask her to accommodate me till the time i find one place. I know its weird but it was actually weird may be cos I figured some changes. Ahhhh... what ever yaar..... so so I had put up at uncle's place. Since my quotes says it all... I experienced that they could just accommodate me for two days max and then had some excuse.
Trust me ... I felt so alone.. {the words of that someone harked back} Having a boy fren at that time, I could not expect much too from his side... my luck u can cite it... But I cannot blame him as I could not count upon him(he too being an outsider plus he helped to an extent he could and for me that was enough!) I was given a deadline of 4 days and in this so so so short time line I never wanted to end up in any filthy place. I was feeling incapacitated .. and bewildered as to what will happen now? I promised my words to parents and never wanted to bother them.

[Ever thot of a Godfather figure to appear in this crucial stage?? I just could not...read ahead]

My neighbor from Kota was residing in K'vli(as a tenant). He was a surrogate brother... Believe me... I can even call him my Godfather now.. Only person who helped me in and out from all the difficulties i faced in Mumbai.. He gave me space in his Flat till the time i got a decent place to live in looking at all the factors . He gave me his own room so as to have my own privacy.. Kept my huge junk of luggage at this place.. Roamed to each and every corner of Mumbai to find me a place.And we ended up in a PG in K'vli .. very very close to his place.....
Being a delicate darling I fell ill so many times.. he was always there for me.. even cooked food for me..helped in whatever best way he could...

It was an awesome time... I remember that night.. I dint dine one day and was bad hungry... I called him up at 12 at night just talking vot my stupidity and can u beat this,,,,,, he was there with large Maggi packet and some biscuits and some cake ... that was worth a starve ;)
People called our relation many names but no one could spot how purely it dealt a brother and a sister relation...anyways it never mattered to both of us... We had our times...

As kids, we(all us neighbors) spent such a lovely time in our colony playing "railway cut" in those full moon nights," dark room","vish-amrit",badminton,basketball,cricket,volleyball and all those stupid silly games that kids play... :)Time passed by and u call it a coincidence or destiny - Never imagined I will ever find a Godfather... How unlikely - A next door neighbor in a different city.
And its till today's date that I ask him for anything or any help or solutions to undergoing conflicts or any any damn thing .. I can spill my beans with him to any extent (perverts stay out of this phrase) ... He guides me and advices me...career.. love life...family.. anything!! just anything!!

Golden!! Isn't it!! :)

Cousine chez Mondy's

Angelic childhood kept us together.
Devilish growth made us depart.
The greed of materialism never made anybody look back to their puerility..
Contrary, our Cares held us together.

One cherished moment I was blessed with - A night at Mondy's (Cafe Mondegar,Colaba Causeway,Mumbai)

Us cousins (me and Aditi) planned a night out along with some common friends. We decided to meet @ Leopold's,Colaba. Me and aditi were in cab; Shruti(one of our fren) and Mandy (her boyfren) were on a bike.. The cab and bike were together for sometime on our ways but soon v lost the touch of sight. Anyhow, we had our destinations marked..so we were carefree.Me and Adi reached the place waiting to meet other pals.It took them quite a time to our suprise.. So we thought to call Shurti (our good fren). Her service network was out of reach.. After trying several times we gave up...Incase, we went and checked upstairs .It was late hours of that night and the vicinity looked pie eyed. Hence, we left that street and decided to move on . We looked like hung marchers lol :P I saw Delhi Darbar to my left and she craved to eat Pasta. How can I not give up Delhi Darbar over Pasta!! :)We ended in Cafe Mondy'sssss.... My mood was lil off as to my suprise I was feeling bad for frens to be slaphappy ,,,anyways,,,, I think a lot (inborn disease) :/ But so sweet of my sis to bear me n my behaviour (I realized that she bore me for that particular minute :|)Atlast she made up my moooood!! We basked sharing the fag, our hunger pasta and Cobra. oh Yes...Ofcourse! when two girls sitting, they ought to Gossip so did we :P
The sepia luminances appeared Black and white...
It seemed as if we were aged back to our kindie days...
It was a beautiful instant that flashed.
I could not capture in my cam but surely did in my mind, heart and soul.

Thank you sisie for turning that hour into a memorable night.

Wish more of it (daru, sutta and pasta haan :P lol)

(PS: Sis, Whenever I see Ponds Age Miracle ad, it always reminds me of u :)|oops dun take me wrong...the first flick it shows is of Mondy's and ;)that reminds me of the times we've had)

Relation-Ships

Toddling Sleeps
Rampant Thoughts
Wondered me??
What lied Beneath!!

Broken half
Cuddled as an arc
Volcanic cerebrations
Aggressed me!!

My heart and mind conflicted
As to wat made us bolted
Was it a Haste or my Fate?

Ahrrg! I enviced, "Cut the Crap"
bullied me
What is it that is raging in me?

Drink Down - comes a soulful voice
I marveled
A white or the black side!

A T T I T U D E

Bull's Eye!

A saying too equaled it:

(Whenever you're in conflict with someone, there is one factor that can make the difference between damaging your relationship and deepening it. That factor is attitude.”)

Then I realised
attitude shot down
Not mine but his
even more
Ragged Me!

and So the relation did not Ship...

Times had overcome
Lessons I learnt
Voided me
No more dreadful sleeps.

Lived the life
Locked the smile
Opened Views
Laid arms through

Another thought - stuck to my mind
Of the Author
Of those times:

(“Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep... wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky his is to have you.... The one who turns to his friends and says, 'that's her.'”)

Now its me
Happy and Gay
No more committments
shredding my way

Thence
A SHiP of Relations is sailing my way ... my way....